The Throne has not been abdicated!

I checked today and yes folks God is still on his Throne. The creator of the universe has not abdicated his seat. The reason I bring this up is what I have seen and am seeing in the Christian community. The belief that we have all the answers. Hey guys we really don't. OK let's get specific, yes we have the Bible and it is our guide book and if we read it we can avoid alot of heartache in our lives. If we share what it says with others, we can help them avoid the pitfalls in life as well.

That is not necessarily what I am referring to. What I am speaking to is our ability to come off as know-it-alls. We tend to think that because we have asked Father God to forgive us of our sins and to be Lord of our lives, and that if we read the Bible, that we have all the answers. The picture I keep getting in my head is of a human with a Bible under their arm and their nose stuck up in the air. I believe we can read the Bible all day long, every version and every language, but we still would not have all the answers. There is only one who does. The Creator of the Universe...Abba, Father God. I believe He has not or will not give us all of the answers....Why? Because we can not handle them. I personally am so glad I do not have to be responsible for the world and the answers to all of its problems.

I personally believe that when we as Christians; are presenting ourselves to the rest of the world, we should show humility, not haughtiness. To quote the Bible, "Pride goes before destruction, and a haughty spirit before a fall" Prov. 16:18 NIV. Show love, mercy, kindness and have an humble spirit and it will have people asking all kinds of questions. Let us leave the problem solving to God, and let us allow the Holy Spirit to draw people to the Father. Father God is still alive today, still sitting on His Throne and is still speaking and drawing people to Him. There is nothing to big for God and nothing He cannot handle. Hey guys there is such freedom in letting go and letting God. Do your part and then let our Father handle it!

Forgiveness

When I started this blog on the evening of January 1st, I thought it would be on one subject. Then I began talking with my husband and realized that something else was on my mind. Let me start from the beginning...I was on a visit with family and listened to different ones talking about different people. I heard so much judgement coming from the conversations....I even caught myself getting caught up in it....I hate it when they judge me and I am the topic of conversation, but it was easy to talk about others. When I realized what was going on, I became angry at these people; angry at myself.

I was getting ready for bed that evening and began a conversation with my husband. I shared with him how angry I was at all the judgement that had happened during those family conversations and that how I felt so judged by family....It was then God began revealing, though yes judgement on others is wrong and it breaks his heart, there was something else going on in my heart and something he wanted to me to address.

As I got into bed and turned on my computer, I began looking up music on you tube. The music of Susan Ashton was on my mind and there were a couple of songs of hers that stood out about judgement, but there was one that I came across and it would not leave me alone and it wasn't about judgement at all, It was about FORGIVENESS. OUCH!!!! That voice in my head was saying pay attention this is what is really eating at you.... TEARS, TEARS, and more TEARS.

I began talking to God....The conversation went something like this.... (Donna) God, I know you want me to forgive and I do want to, but the hurt is so real. How do I just let it go? (God) Donna, do you love me? (Donna) Yes Father I love you with all of my heart.... (God) Then TRUST ME! Lay all of the hurt, anger, disappointment at my feet and JUST TRUST! It will all be taken care of....TRUST!

Now it is January 16th and I am finally finishing this blog. Have I learned anymore about forgiveness...um probably not....I just know in order to get forgiveness, I must give it. I also know that when you choose to forgive, you are not letting those that hurt you off the hook, but you are giving yourself permission to move on with your life. You are cutting those ties that bind you, loose. In my case I felt as if God handed me a large pair of scissors and said the rest is up to you kid. You can stay bound or you can go free. Today I choose freedom and it feels good!

No More Worms!

Hmmm...What's on my mind today? Change....I hear people talking about it all the time....I myself want to see changes in my life, physically and mentally....But the big question is...What am I, what are we doing to bring about those changes we want to see happen? Being a christian, I want to look up to heaven and say "Lord would you please get out your magic wand and wave it and then POW...the changes in me and in my situation have happened.....Well folks, I've tried that and it did not work...

I have something I tell those around me and I know they must tire of hearing it......God loves us but he loves us to much to leave us where we are at..... As much as we want to see and have changes happen in our lives, I believe God wants it more. He has equipped us with everything we need to do the job, we just have to have faith, get up and get moving.

Now I am a picture person..... a visual learner and I believe that God speaks to me through pictures....Well one day when praying for and about change, this picture came into my head....I could see a nest and in that nest was myself and I had my head but the body of a bird...Now I could see myself looking up to heaven with my mouth open and waiting for God to feed me....and the words that began to come to me were...."No more worms!"..... I said, "But wait God, who will feed me...how will I make it?" The words that came back...."My child it's time to fly!"

Donna's Thoughts: Sometimes you just have to do the hard thing. . .

Donna's Thoughts: Sometimes you just have to do the hard thing. . .

Sometimes you just have to do the hard thing. . .

This blog comes from a mama's heart....and is one of the hardest things so far that I feel I must write about. You see I have a little boy that is seven years old and he does not live with me. You are thinking now that well he lives with his dad and no he does not. He currently resides with my sister and her husband and children.
It will be a year this May that I made the decision to send my son to live with his aunt and uncle. There are no words to describe what this did to me inside. Tears in my eyes as I sit here and type. I will not go into my past right now and describe circumstances that brought all this about....when the time is right I do hope to share those things.  This has nothing to do with me being on drugs or being an alcoholic, it does have to do with me doing the right thing for my son. My son's dad and I had been divorced for almost five years when my son left. He had been diagnosed  by a child psychologist as ADHD and was acting out horribly at school. His dad nor I had the money to give him the things that he needed. I began to pray for direction for my son's life and felt led to call my sister and discuss with her the possibility of him coming to her home for a year and see how he does. I called her and she talked with her husband and both felt that it would be best for him to stay with them.  I am happy to report my son is doing great. He is in a settled enviroment, being home-schooled and playing baseball and his team is winning. It has been horribly difficult on me, but I know that I know I did the right thing.

I have shared this to let my readers know that sometimes we just have to do the hard thing. Me allowing my son to leave was not about me, I want him here with me.....The best thing I could have done was to let him go......I know from experiance that time has a way of proving things out.....

So what I would say to you my reader is when faced with having to do something difficult and you know it is what you are supposed to do, just take that leap of faith and do it and  TRUST GOD!

Donna's Thoughts: Who's driving your car?

Donna's Thoughts: Who's driving your car?

Who's driving your car?

For the past few days now there is this song that has been playing in my head.....In My Car I'll Be The Driver.....the chorus of the song says this: In my car I'll be the driver, In my car I'm in control, In my car I come alive and In my car I am the driver...watch me now....Ok now the point the writer of this song is trying to make is that the man in her life can be the strong one, have control of the remote and even sleep with his socks on, but when it comes to her car, move over baby....that is her territory. I totally understand this thought. Everyone needs to feel like they have something to say over what goes on in their life, whether it be when and where they drive their car, how they spend their money, etc.....



Ok now let's look at this from a differant point of view, that of our Heavenly Father. He loves us unconditionally, in fact he loves us so much he has given us the gift of free will. We get to chose in this life where we live, who we fall in love with and chose to marry, where we work and I could go on and on.


Now I find myself setting down scratching my head thinking I feel empty inside. I am in school full time pursuing a counseling degree (my passion), in love with an incredible man that I will be marrying soon and have beautiful children that are healthy and well. Things that I have longed and hoped for my whole life. I finally feel like I have some say over things that are going on. I also know that my Heavenly Father loves me and wants the best for me. Ok now some would say "Donna, What is your problem?"


Here is the picture I am getting in my head.....My life is my car....I hand the keys to God and say here you do the driving, I can not drive as well as you. Well now I am in the passenger seat and I see things coming up ahead and think Lord I would really like to get involved here, I think I will take control for a bit. Now the Father will not fight us for the keys to the car or driver's rights. He just says ok. We get in and it feels so good to be in control until a car stops suddenly in front of us we slam on the brakes but not in time and we hit the car ahead of us. We look up to the Father and go wait a minute, this wasn't suppose to happen. Well hmmm....we took control of the wheel...... .


Ok now I think you have the picture....God knows the future and we do not. He wants to drive our car but will not fight for the right to do so.....He loves us so much he is just waiting for the opportunity for us to say "Father, take the wheel". He never promised it wouldn't be scary at times, but in the end the results of our lives will be far more better, when he has the keys.