Roxanne

Roxanne sat quietly sipping her coffee while sitting on the kitchen window seat of her best friend Leslie's home. The home was located on beautiful Lake Amston in the small town of Lebanon Conneticut. Miles from her home in Austin Tx....this was Roxanne's place to escape when life seemed overwhelming. As luck would have it, her best friend of 40 years... was away in London England doing research for a book she was writing. She had phoned Roxanne about two weeks before her trip to see if she would be interested in house sitting... Roxanne, of course  said yes and her being a freelance writer would make it easy to  take her work with her.


 It was fall and the trees were beautiful colors of gold, orange and brown and the area surrounding Leslie's home was eerily quiet. The town, busy during the summer season, was now mostly empty of tourists, this suited Roxanne completely...she could focus on her writing. She had recently been contacted by a popular psychology magazine and asked to do a piece on marriage relationship. Being a graduate from Baylor Universtiy and her degree being in Psychology with the emphsis being on marriage and family....having done private marriage counseling with a well known counseling center in Texas....she felt more than qualified. But if people knew of her personal life, they may never want to read her words.


It's amazing how easily it is to give advice to others and not able to live it yourself. God knows she had tried, but everytime she found herself in a relationship it ended terribly. Her first marriage lasted for ten years and then she had found that her ex was having an affair with his high school girlfriend. When she confronted him with her knowledge of the affair, he blamed her for his straying. She did not fight, but filed for divorce and it was done. When the divorce was final...it was strange but she felt nothing...just empty and angry for having lost ten years of her life. Roxanne really believed she had not been in love to begin with. She believed two lonely and sad souls met, dated and married because it was what was expected. Two years later she met Tom and fell head over heels. There were love letters, flowers, music and dancing and then a very romantic wedding and a week long honeymoon in  Aruba. That marriage lasted three years and then came the knowledge of his affair with his ex wife, whom he had swore was satan's angel. When the divorce was final, she decided no more marriage.

She had spent the last two years healing...taking time for herself...getting to know who she was and what she wanted. It was amazing that Roxanne had come as far as she had with her career. Through two failed marriages, she had worked part time jobs and gotten her Masters Degree in Psychology. There had never been never been children and looking back she was glad there hadn't.  There were times when she had wanted them but in both marriages she and her spouses were both just to busy.

Roxanne looked up at the clock on the wall and an hour had already passed. She had finished her coffee and had eaten a doughnut and all while looking out at the water and daydreaming. God it was absolutely beautiful here...but she must get to her writing. She would shower first, get dressed, make the bed and then to work.

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